artikulate

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Look, im sorry for slamming the damned door so hard but hey it wasnt targeted at anyone y'know? I guess it was just a realllyyy long day after running arnd sch and getting our video bloody erased twice for no apparent reason, and then all that shit just had to erupt in the room.. I really didnt mean it. And really, too, do you think marks mean so much to me? Im seriously just disappointed in the way things turned out. An i think YOU opened a pandoras box by letting us choose.
Dont people realise that all humans (being already born sinners) are inately selfish? Even more so this generation of spoilt brats. (check - i didnt deny that im part of this screwed up generation too) and isnt it bloody obvious that we wld want to choose the best option for ourselves? Well you cant blame me cos you were the one who asked me in the first place. I really had to fight back to urge to just scream and cry.
You know that?

Thank God for yunx and my mum really or i wld just have blown it.
Leave the rest to the Lord and He will take care of it

That night, i prayed really hard for Him to remove all the those thoughts from me; as well as trust that somehow judgement doesnt belong to me.
Well i guess you got your justs back yesterday:/
The 14min youknowwhat jarred my brain to bits. And im not in the least bit sorry about it

||| out of tune at 10:26 PM