Saturday, September 23, 2006
Look, im sorry for slamming the damned door so hard but hey it wasnt targeted at anyone y'know? I guess it was just a realllyyy long day after running arnd sch and getting our video bloody erased twice for no apparent reason, and then all that shit just had to erupt in the room.. I really didnt mean it. And really, too, do you think marks mean so much to me? Im seriously just disappointed in the way things turned out. An i think YOU opened a pandoras box by letting us choose.
Dont people realise that all humans (being already born sinners) are inately selfish? Even more so this generation of spoilt brats. (check - i didnt deny that im part of this screwed up generation too) and isnt it bloody obvious that we wld want to choose the best option for ourselves? Well you cant blame me cos you were the one who asked me in the first place. I really had to fight back to urge to just scream and cry.
You know that?
Thank God for yunx and my mum really or i wld just have blown it.
Leave the rest to the Lord and He will take care of it
That night, i prayed really hard for Him to remove all the those thoughts from me; as well as trust that somehow judgement doesnt belong to me.
Well i guess you got your justs back yesterday:/
The 14min youknowwhat jarred my brain to bits. And im not in the least bit sorry about it
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Monday, September 18, 2006
Ive been falling asleep in classrooms with the rain dancing on the ground outside and weather blissfully dreary.
I think I would like the London life
I think I would like the happy grey skies
I think I would like feeling the chill on my nose
Something bimin said today brought back that feeling. "I'm beginning to have withdrawal symptoms for England now"
Bring it back:)
Aye i did the stupidest thing yesterday..left the darned house-key at home, kena stuck outside while waiting to meet the mumx)
Ended up waking dear old mabe from her aftn nap and crashing her hse:p
Thank goodness for frens that live just across the street
It was good to catch up again mabe! Just like those first three months
I guess when people are able to click it doesnt feel weird talking even after a period of not seeing each other. Is this called chemistry? Or Fate? Or just plain old Friendship? heh either way im grateful for it.
Which brings me to what ive been pondering lately.. Its true that in our lives we make all sorts of friends, but one always has that small handful of TRUE friends that stay on no matter what. I guess sometimes we expect too much out of mere good friends..Or maybe its just my own presumption that i always tend to drift farther. And I always find myself stepping onto the path of the lone ranger at the end of the day. But it comforts me somehow, that im in a world of my own. My thoughts my art and my guitar:)
Praying for this wet weather to hold up
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Friday, September 15, 2006
..
summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends
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Thursday, September 14, 2006
whoa.. April to September - its really been a long time since i last came here huh. and actually i dont even know why im back. I guess its just a whim, and okayokay credit to CHNG HIGHNESS the design is quite nice la:)
aye so many things have happened in the centuries this tiny lil space was left untouched. Yes yl the England trip was smashing:)- the best of many hols in a long time, and i really did just forget about everything back home and simply soak in the English air (I swear it did wonders to the cough plaguing me). obviously everything came crashing back down to earth when i returned la but thats another story altogether..heh.
And then there was Nationals!! Whoa am i thankful or am i thankful that we DIDNT cap in the final burst man. Haha i totally heard the crowd onshore gasp:p i think teo cldnt even bring himself to watch the phenomena haha.and then the dualthalon that was..okay i guess? But my running was really off that day, 2k mark already panting like shiat:/ thing is, i feel like my fitness REALLY started to improve after all that competition - i clocked just over 24 on mon!!!:)
And just recently there was GIB, and i have come to the horrible realization that i was probly one of the DIRTIEST internal heads arnd:/ heh the room is absolutely spotless now. and hell i won that stupid bet with cammie about how she wld make it to the exco. heh so much for all that whining eh girl? But somehow, this year the board just feels too young, too naive. Or maybe we were all like that last time but you never really notice it till you take the position of a bystander. and i never thought id say this, but sec4s - you've all really grown and matured after your term in exco. no more the the ditzy one, or the shy one, or the crappy jokes one. the year must have been a great one for you guys and im really proud:)
i guess thats just the major things that have happened and i do want to keep this bloody thing going..hopefully ill have more time now that trng's officially stopped
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