Saturday, February 04, 2006
Hello 2006:)
Its been one hell of a ride since we ushered in the new year with cheers, champagne, fireworks and whatnot. (Which, btw, explains my absence since goodness-knows-when.) Anyway, like i said, it's not been easy dealing with bronchitis, missing virtually all of orientation and nearly 2weeks of sch (:p) and having to fumble my way arnd the nooks and cranies of vj when i finally did get back on track. Until i came to know 06A13:) you guys rock mann..and i guess thats the best thing that couldve happened in my short life at vj:) I believe one day when ive moved on and I happen to look back, ill be glad to have happy, crazy memories of my time spent at vj and with this wonderful bunch of *peeps* (haha)
It's made my decision to leave harder y'know? It makes the urge to stay even stronger.. ohwell.. my minds made up though. For the time being, i really do look forward to each day - watching lynette break out in sudden cranky laughter in the LTs; bitching endlessly during breaks with oh-so-scandalous-kenny leading the way:p; suppressing giggles when the weird droning starts during mr panic-attack's class, causing him to become even more nervous; and of course, more entertainment during eat-out lunches and dinners. I guess im really blessed to find myself in this class, seeing as some unfortunate others have quite abit of *ahem adjustments.
Im enjoying myself too much. The thought of uprooting and moving on to a totally different environment has been pushed to the recesses of my conscious brain, further and further back each day. Im scared stiff. but its the path ive chosen and i simply cant look back and pretend nothing has happened. It has. And theres no escape, only temporary relief. I have placed this matter into the hands of the Lord, but sometimes its just so hard to ignore the repeated qns of 'what if' in my head. Thats what faith and temptation is about. and im scared that i dont have what it takes to last me through the next 3yrs. its hard to live a truly christian life..people question why we cant do this cant do that, or even worse, question why we dont seem to live like christians. And im praying constantly for His strength to last me through each day..its actually never failed, but y'know how humans tend to have that little disbelieving thought stuck in our heads and i feel so guilty each time i doubt and he delivers:( but we still persevere on, with the single faith that our Lord Jesus Christ has prepared a place in His kingdom for us - the ultimate prize.
I really need to work on my faith.
Thanks for now,
thanks for the future too, Lord:)
||| out of tune at 4:50 PM
Hi all.
I'm not one to conform to repeated reminders that my blog is outdated y'know. Wait..did i say MY blog? Yeah its MINE rarr so i post as and when i please, no? Just to re-iterate: this is not a-detailed-analysis-of-how-my-life-went-today kinda blog so i cant and i wont possibly visit this little white box everyday to roll out the going-ons in my life. So there.
||| out of tune at 4:40 PM
